A Year Later

Yesterday marked a year to the date of Reece’s transplant.  As it turns out, the day was harder for me than I had anticipated. I knew it was coming—obviously—but didn’t expect to feel attached to it in the way that I did.  We had so many hopes for this transplant and such a desire to be celebrating a full year of new, healthy blood with him.  In fact, we had sort of “sold” the whole transplant idea to Reece by explaining that he would be the only kid we knew who was able to celebrate two birthdays a year—his date of birth and his date of new blood or his “Blood Birthday”.  We had hoped to take a special trip if he was well enough.  We had hoped for a lot of things…

I have such mixed feelings about his “Blood Birthday”.  If he was here and everything had gone according to our plans, it would have been cause for a big celebration.  However, things did not go according to plan.  The new blood destroyed his body; it’s disturbing.  He was so brave about the whole thing.  He never asked why he had to go through what he went through.  He trusted us.  He so sweetly told my mom the day of transplant that he was, “…a little nervous.”  The only thing I’m celebrating a year later is what we celebrate every day–Reece.  But whatever our party here theoretically would have looked like, it would have paled in comparison to what he is experiencing now.  That doesn’t change the hurting part here, but I take comfort in knowing that.

Many memories from the hospital have all merged together, but I will never forget a year from today when Reece awoke at 4 am, the day after transplant, ready to play the entire day.  Being six months pregnant, I tried to fight through the tiredness to enjoy it.  In fact, it is my last memory of him wanting to get down and play with toys on the floor.  I’m sure he did so for a few days after, but I cannot distinctly remember what day the floor playing ended.

Playing with hexbugs the day after transplant!

Playing with Hexbugs the day after transplant!

We miss you, Bud.

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4 responses to “A Year Later

  1. Melissa

    Oh, I’m sending much love your way today. What a great picture of your sweet boy.

  2. Jean Pederson

    What a beautiful picture!! Thanks for sharing! Think of you all often and keep you in our prayers!

  3. Sarah Naranjo

    Oh Terri, my heart is heavy for you this week, knowing that Reece’s transplant was last year this time. Praying for you and Terry. So thankful Reece knows Jesus and that this truth can bring you the comfort you so need. I love the picture of Reece playing. I pray this memory of playing with him, being Reece’s mommy in this shared moment and showing him such great love can bring you continued joy.

  4. Patty Doyle

    We are a Normandale Preschool Family, I believe your son Reece attended preschool there so I have kept “Like Olive Shoots” on my favorites to follow.
    I am praying for your family to find the joy of Reeces time here on earth with you and embrace God’s Presence with you now. I believe Heaven is real, for all believers in Jesus Christ, their Savior – I believe Heaven is on Earth and our Savior, our angels, our loved ones are with us, they are all with you. Reece is with you always. Pray daily for Peace and God’s Love to strenthen you to Live Life to Please God. My confirmation verse from Normandale Lutheran Church speaks to me at different times of life – Isaiah 41:10 “Fear Not I am with you, be not dismayed, I am your God. I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my victorious right hand” Amen.

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